Your Autistic Life: The Ruminations of an Autistic Enby
This is my blog. I masked my autism for the first 50 years of my life. I discovered in March 2023 that I am, in fact, autistic. Prior to this time, my life was mostly okay, but did not make much sense overall. Since my self-diagnosis, my life makes much more sense.
If you don’t know where to start on this site, this page has the articles you should read first.
Premium articles can be found here, besides appearing in the other sections.
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I No Longer Recommend Feeld
The powers that be killed the golden goose. If you’ve already read this article, please read the updates at the bottom. They are eye-opening. I’ve complained about the state of Feeld before. Namely, in this article: Well… it’s gone from bad to worse. Feeld used to be the application I’d recommend for the gender and…
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The Measure Of An Enby

Am I nonbinary? The signs point to the fact that I am. When you’ve met one enby, you’ve met one enby. I realized that this motto was true even before meeting one enby as an enby on a dating app. I suspect I have met some enbies a long time ago, but I did not…
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Feeld Bots
Bots are on the loose! https://spectra.video/w/6iV6s76v88wL4E6Y6xgkFg
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The Normalcy Of Being Enby

It may seem paradoxical, but the realization that I am in fact enby eliminated a source of weirdness in my life. In the article in which I came out as enby, I explained how patriarchy dictates the gender binary of man and woman. I reject this edict. “I’m not a man.” “Oh, you must be…
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Stimming Is Life 008

More music to stim to. Lest you think that I’m making these playlists just for you. No, I’m making them for myself. I’ve been stimming to the following playlist for a few weeks now on my daily walks, and on the subway. Oh, Tranz by Gorillaz is a bit fast, but it is sooo gooooood!…
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Do You Really Have To Put On Sunscreen 20 Minutes Prior To Being In The Sun?

I’m going to say that it really depends on what you’re doing after, and explain why. Let me first start with this. If you hold that I must put on my sunscreen 20 minutes prior to exposure, please back up your opinion with facts. Otherwise, your opinion remains opinion. It is like preferring chocolate ice…
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My Marriage Sheltered Me
Reflecting back, I think my marriage sheltered me from having to be an autistic man in the world. I met my ex-wife at the age of 24. She was 44. I don’t think that she really set out to mother me. However, the way the marriage evolved may have had the same effect. I was…
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The Death Of A Dream
We’ve sold the marital house, and with that a dream died. We recently sold the house in which my ex-wife and I lived for seven or eight years. I left earlier, she left later, hence the seven or eight year figure. It was the second house we owned together. Truth be told, our dream died…
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Was Autism A Factor In My Divorce?
No, and yes. It is a complicated question for which both answers are correct. I’ve always maintained that my autism wasn’t the cause of my divorce. This is true, insofar as neither of us knew that I was autistic. That’s something I realized after the divorce. However, I’m still engaging in The Great Reflection. As…
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Sleep Disorders
I used to be able to sleep just fine, but I lost that ability with age. Sleep disorders are common among autistic people. The fact that I progressively lost the ability to sleep normally is one of the reasons I think that I was starting to lose the ability to mask prior to my cancer,…
Latest Videos From My YouTube Channel:
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Schrödinger’s [Bleep]
Today we learn about Schrödinger’s [bleep]. That’s when a [bleep] fell on his head and he came up with the [bleep]ity wave. https://youtu.be/4FtCVAMcQ-0
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Ear Muffins
Finn is showcasing new apparel. https://youtube.com/shorts/RHneJYxJPJM?feature=share
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The Parabola Of The Mustard Seed
Finn wants to tell a parabola to Alice. https://youtube.com/shorts/2zZhS1CLQAE?feature=share
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Stimming Is Life 012
More music to stim to! Keen-eyed observers will recognize Wish I Knew You by The Revivalists. I’ve talked about it in this article:
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Stimming Is Life 011
More music to stim to. I’ve picked the audio-only version of The Less I Know The Better by Tame Impala. There’s a video of it, however, it contains sex, so I decided to not include it in my playlist. Feel free to find it on YouTube and watch it, however!
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Stimming Is Life 010
More music to stim to. Warning: the clip for Wonderland by Caravan Palace contains imagery that some people can find disturbing.

