Your Autistic Life

Your Autistic Life: The Ruminations of an Autistic Enby

This is my blog. I masked my autism for the first 50 years of my life. I discovered in March 2023 that I am, in fact, autistic. Prior to this time, my life was mostly okay, but did not make much sense overall. Since my self-diagnosis, my life makes much more sense.

If you don’t know where to start on this site, this page has the articles you should read first.

Premium articles can be found here, besides appearing in the other sections.

Editorials:

  • UnitedHealth’s Stupidity Is Suffocating

    What kind of idiots run this company?????????? UnitedHealth was hit in a data breach. They did exactly what you should not do. For fuck’s sake! You do not need to be a genius to fucking know what I’m going to fucking tell you here. If you guessed that I am mad, well, bingo! You win…

  • The Examined Life

    The discovery of my neurodivergence has been a blessing in disguise, for, together with other crises, it forced me to examine my life. I know for a fact that some people won’t accept that neurodivergence is a blessing at all. These folks sometimes wish that they would be able to do away with their own…

  • Why Do Autistic People “Make A Scene?”

    Because you don’t bloody listen. Going to events can be challenging when you are autistic. It is definitely challenging for me. I have noise sensitivity and social anxiety. I’ve recently learned that I’m liable to crash if I’m overstimulated during a social event. Fun! I’m going to talk about a specific event here. It is…

Random Articles:

  • The Death Of A Dream

    We’ve sold the marital house, and with that a dream died. We recently sold the house in which my ex-wife and I lived for seven or eight years. I left earlier, she left later, hence the seven or eight year figure. It was the second house we owned together. Truth be told, our dream died…

  • Neurodivergence And Spirituality

    Is it possible that neurodivergent people experience spirituality differently than neurotypical folks? The answer is obvious. Yes, we experience spirituality differently than neurotypical folks. Why should spirituality be any different from the other realms of existence? I’ll remind you that I used to think that we perceive the world in more or less the same…

  • How My Sleep Specialists Screwed Me

    Good news: I solved my insomnia problem. Bad news: my sleep specialists screwed me. This article was originally published elsewhere in November 2022. I’m republishing it here with minimal editing. I’ll note that my insomnia problem is not fully fixed. It is definitely better. I now sleep five to height hours per night instead of…

Latest Articles:

  • Advice For People Dealing With Cancer, Or A Possible Diagnosis

    How to go through this ordeal, without completely losing your mind. I had cancer. I talk about it in the past tense because, as we speak, I’m close to three years in remission, and all the tests after my treatment point to me being clear of my cancer. All the MRIs I’ve had so far…

  • Adversity Does Not Make You Stronger

    The reality of it is much more complex than what the saying would have you believe. Adversity has visited me often. So much so, that by all rights, if the saying were true, I’d be Superman by now. Alas, I’m no Superman. Adversity nearly killed me. Adversity has had a beneficial effect on me, but…

  • My Conditions Are Not Moral Failings

    It is really hard to abandon the idea that conditions are moral failings when society at large bleats that they are. Tie your hat down. This is going to be a longish article. I’m going to highlight some ways in which doctors and the general population hold onto an obsolete model of our somatic and…

  • My Life As A Porcelain Dog: Part 2

    In what follows, I am going to describe what it means to be someone’s porcelain dog. This article is for paying subscribers only, for a number of reasons. One is that I’m going to go into very intimate details of my life. Another one is that I don’t want the persons I talk about here…

  • My Life As A Porcelain Dog: Part 1

    In what follows, I am going to describe what it means to be someone’s porcelain dog. This article is for paying subscribers only, for a number of reasons. One is that I’m going to go into very intimate details of my life. Another one is that I don’t want the persons I talk about here…

  • Stop Minimizing People’s Problems

    This is another one of those moves that can easily end up being ableist as fuck. I recently posted a message in the fediverse pointing out that the COVID-19 tests provided by www.test2treat.org have the worst packaging ever that I’ve seen in any testing kit. I can fit four Flowflex kits, four tests, in about…

Latest Videos From My YouTube Channel:

  • You Gotta Be Shipping Me!

    CONTAINS CRUDE LANGUAGE No, I ship you not! https://spectra.video/w/5yDtavGfzuD2Vzu94B6dps

  • Space Opera – Episode 1

    CONTAINS MILDLY CRUDE LANGUAGE. This space opera is happening in space, with lots of spacey things. https://spectra.video/w/8cnhAN4tzG1cXdqm19Mu1F

  • A Loaded Finger

    Never point a loaded finger at something you don’t want to destroy. https://spectra.video/w/mazaNRe61Kp9sz3KGrd8KN

Latest Music:

  • Stimming Is Life 012

    More music to stim to! Keen-eyed observers will recognize Wish I Knew You by The Revivalists. I’ve talked about it in this article:

  • Stimming Is Life 011

    More music to stim to. I’ve picked the audio-only version of The Less I Know The Better by Tame Impala. There’s a video of it, however, it contains sex, so I decided to not include it in my playlist. Feel free to find it on YouTube and watch it, however!

  • Stimming Is Life 010

    More music to stim to. Warning: the clip for Wonderland by Caravan Palace contains imagery that some people can find disturbing.