Your Autistic Life

Your Autistic Life: The Ruminations of an Autistic Enby

This is my blog. I masked my autism for the first 50 years of my life. I discovered in March 2023 that I am, in fact, autistic. Prior to this time, my life was mostly okay, but did not make much sense overall. Since my self-diagnosis, my life makes much more sense.

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Editorials:

  • UnitedHealth’s Stupidity Is Suffocating

    What kind of idiots run this company?????????? UnitedHealth was hit in a data breach. They did exactly what you should not do. For fuck’s sake! You do not need to be a genius to fucking know what I’m going to fucking tell you here. If you guessed that I am mad, well, bingo! You win…

  • The Examined Life

    The discovery of my neurodivergence has been a blessing in disguise, for, together with other crises, it forced me to examine my life. I know for a fact that some people won’t accept that neurodivergence is a blessing at all. These folks sometimes wish that they would be able to do away with their own…

  • Why Do Autistic People “Make A Scene?”

    Because you don’t bloody listen. Going to events can be challenging when you are autistic. It is definitely challenging for me. I have noise sensitivity and social anxiety. I’ve recently learned that I’m liable to crash if I’m overstimulated during a social event. Fun! I’m going to talk about a specific event here. It is…

Random Articles:

  • The Girl Who Mistook Me For A Pile Of Bricks

    I wanted to give her everything, but she backstabbed me. I’ve mentioned it before. The queer world is rather small. You should be nice to the people you run into, even when breaking up with them. If you do not, you may get a cold reception the next time you run into them. I wanted…

  • The Dawn Of Understanding

    I’m just beginning to understand that the masters said. Good news! You’re already enlightened. Bad news. You still need to practice, for a long time, and most likely until you die. Ain’t this fun? Oftentimes, Zen practice beings with a desire for enlightenment. I’ll get enlightened. Then I’ll show them! Not a very wholesome thought,…

  • Social Anxiety

    Social interactions have always been difficult. As a general observation, social interactions have always proved to be a minefield for me. I did my best to step carefully through this minefield, but I did step on some landmines. I thought that was just me being “quirky” but I think now it is my autism. Truth…

Latest Articles:

  • Headphones Review: Sony WH-1000XM4, Soundcore by Anker Life Q30, and TUINYO

    I’m reviewing the three pairs of Bluetooth headphones that I own. Promotional image for the Sony WH-1000XM4 It is fairly rare that I can do comparisons, but in this case I can. I’ve bought three pairs of headphones, for different purposes. Spoiler: the Sony WH-1000XM4 are the best. You need to be logged in to…

  • I’ve Been Nonbinary As Long As I Can Remember

    Looking back at my life, the signs were there. I’ve reflected on my life in the article that I link to below. However, I’m continuing the reexamination of my life prior to the realization that I am, in fact, nonbinary. I’ve now come out to three family members as an enby. This is by far…

  • If I Were A Billionaire

    I’d be helping my fellow human beings here and now. A billion dollars does isolate you from having to worry about your future, right? I sure hope so. At least that’s how I imagine it. If I’m wrong about this, you can try to convince me, but you’re going to have to bring up your…

  • Aphorisms Of Love: To Find Lasting Relationships, You Must Allow Those That Won’t Last

    A reflection on those relationships that don’t last. I was lucky when I met my ex-wife. It was my first relationship. It lasted 26 years, and our marriage lasted 22 years. It was a “hole in one” so to speak. Mind you, we did have some rumbles during our first year. We broke up four…

  • I No Longer Recommend Feeld

    The powers that be killed the golden goose. If you’ve already read this article, please read the updates at the bottom. They are eye-opening. I’ve complained about the state of Feeld before. Namely, in this article: Well… it’s gone from bad to worse. Feeld used to be the application I’d recommend for the gender and…

  • The Normalcy Of Being Enby

    It may seem paradoxical, but the realization that I am in fact enby eliminated a source of weirdness in my life. In the article in which I came out as enby, I explained how patriarchy dictates the gender binary of man and woman. I reject this edict. “I’m not a man.” “Oh, you must be…

Latest Videos From My YouTube Channel:

  • Brian Cancer

    Someone’s got Brian cancer. DARK HUMOR! (Btw, I did have cancer, and it was in my brain.) https://spectra.video/w/36zWD22JU4pF3pxXBATnNj

  • Scrape-o-Matic 3000

    The Scrape-o-Matic 3000 scrapes everything! https://spectra.video/w/16bjTQCaxDQfNne6jqNkGv

  • Docker Compost

    Use Docker compost to turn your docker images into flower pots. https://spectra.video/w/gozo1RebwtWCSzADNQVm7t

Latest Music:

  • Stimming Is Life 009

    More music to stim to. The music video for I Appear Missing is a big gory. Also, I picked the audio of Miracle for the YouTube playlist. There is an official music video, but it is not safe for work. If you want to see it, you’ll have to work for it.

  • Stimming Is Life 008

    More music to stim to. Lest you think that I’m making these playlists just for you. No, I’m making them for myself. I’ve been stimming to the following playlist for a few weeks now on my daily walks, and on the subway. Oh, Tranz by Gorillaz is a bit fast, but it is sooo gooooood!…

  • Stimming Is Life 007

    A playlist of music I stim to. The playlist on YouTube: The playlist on Spotify: Get your very own Stimming is Life sweatshirt in my Bonfire store: