Your Autistic Life: The Ruminations of an Autistic Enby
This is my blog. I masked my autism for the first 50 years of my life. I discovered in March 2023 that I am, in fact, autistic. Prior to this time, my life was mostly okay, but did not make much sense overall. Since my self-diagnosis, my life makes much more sense.
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UnitedHealth’s Stupidity Is Suffocating
What kind of idiots run this company?????????? UnitedHealth was hit in a data breach. They did exactly what you should not do. For fuck’s sake! You do not need to be a genius to fucking know what I’m going to fucking tell you here. If you guessed that I am mad, well, bingo! You win…
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The Examined Life
The discovery of my neurodivergence has been a blessing in disguise, for, together with other crises, it forced me to examine my life. I know for a fact that some people won’t accept that neurodivergence is a blessing at all. These folks sometimes wish that they would be able to do away with their own…
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Why Do Autistic People “Make A Scene?”
Because you don’t bloody listen. Going to events can be challenging when you are autistic. It is definitely challenging for me. I have noise sensitivity and social anxiety. I’ve recently learned that I’m liable to crash if I’m overstimulated during a social event. Fun! I’m going to talk about a specific event here. It is…
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Stimming Is Life 003
More music to stim to. As usual, take what you like, ignore the rest. Note that Spotify does not seem to have The Living Tombstone remix of Epoch by Savlonic. Also, Vital Signs by Tame Impala is not on Spotify. Here is the YouTube playlist: Here is the Spotify one: As usual, comments are welcome.…
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Stimming Is Life 006
More music for those who like to stim to music! The YouTube playlist: The Spotify playlist: You, too, can get a hoodie, sweater, or shirt that says “Stimming Is Life” over on my Bonfire store.
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Sleep Disorders
I used to be able to sleep just fine, but I lost that ability with age. Sleep disorders are common among autistic people. The fact that I progressively lost the ability to sleep normally is one of the reasons I think that I was starting to lose the ability to mask prior to my cancer,…
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Is Meditation More Pleasurable Than Sex?
What being neurodivergent and queer has taught me about this question. There is frank talk about sex in what follows here, including masochism. In my view, it is light talk, but reader beware. From time to time I see claims that meditation is indeed more pleasurable than sex. Wow! Let’s reach for the meditation cushion…
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Getting Rid of Old Shit
I’m lightening the load. Don’t think for one second that getting rid of old shit is easy for me. I do find all kinds of reasons to keep stuff around, but life events sometimes insist on your making the decision to get rid of shit. My divorce was such an event. I had to part…
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On Zen Practice
The revolutionary art of unlearning. I don’t think that what follows is especially original. It was probably communicated to me at the beginning of my practice, but I was too bewildered and stupid to understand it. It is only now, after years of practice, that I finally understand what was communicated. When I talk about…
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Why Are Autistic Folks Generally Tolerant?
I do have a simple theory. My theory is that it is because we don’t generally believe in arbitrary social conventions. Those very same conventions usually do not serve us, autistic folks, well. Once the social conventions that oppress us daily are seen as arbitrary, it does not take much to realize that most other…
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UnitedHealth’s Stupidity Is Suffocating
What kind of idiots run this company?????????? UnitedHealth was hit in a data breach. They did exactly what you should not do. For fuck’s sake! You do not need to be a genius to fucking know what I’m going to fucking tell you here. If you guessed that I am mad, well, bingo! You win…
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The “I’ll Expose Your Behavior” Scam
Don’t send them any money. Nothing bad will happen to you. How do I know? Well, for one thing, I’ve received several of these emails throughout the years. I’ve never sent any money. Nothing bad happened. For good measure, two scammers tried this tactic with me on the dating apps. When they revealed themselves, I…
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The Fuck You Fountain
CONTAINS CRUDE LANGUAGE! The Fuck You Fountain will not give you water, but it will insult you, in multiple languages. https://spectra.video/w/wkXJMeUrtkoSHc1PpkHcth
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Of Caregiver Doms And Masochistic Flies
A masochistic fly asks about caregiver Doms. https://spectra.video/w/4szpH1Es7udqCV1EaW3cPj
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Disemvoweled
Someone gets disemvoweled. https://spectra.video/w/53Jx14wXbgN3pcgK5stNNA
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Stimming Is Life 009
More music to stim to. The music video for I Appear Missing is a big gory. Also, I picked the audio of Miracle for the YouTube playlist. There is an official music video, but it is not safe for work. If you want to see it, you’ll have to work for it.
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Stimming Is Life 008
More music to stim to. Lest you think that I’m making these playlists just for you. No, I’m making them for myself. I’ve been stimming to the following playlist for a few weeks now on my daily walks, and on the subway. Oh, Tranz by Gorillaz is a bit fast, but it is sooo gooooood!…
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Stimming Is Life 007
A playlist of music I stim to. The playlist on YouTube: The playlist on Spotify: Get your very own Stimming is Life sweatshirt in my Bonfire store: