Your Autistic Life: The Ruminations of an Autistic Enby

This is my blog. I masked my autism for the first 50 years of my life. I discovered in March 2023 that I am, in fact, autistic. Prior to this time, my life was mostly okay, but did not make much sense overall. Since my self-diagnosis, my life makes much more sense.

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Editorials:

  • UnitedHealth’s Stupidity Is Suffocating

    What kind of idiots run this company?????????? UnitedHealth was hit in a data breach. They did exactly what you should not do. For fuck’s sake! You do not need to be a genius to fucking know what I’m going to fucking tell you here. If you guessed that I am mad, well, bingo! You win…

  • The Examined Life

    The discovery of my neurodivergence has been a blessing in disguise, for, together with other crises, it forced me to examine my life. I know for a fact that some people won’t accept that neurodivergence is a blessing at all. These folks sometimes wish that they would be able to do away with their own…

  • Why Do Autistic People “Make A Scene?”

    Because you don’t bloody listen. Going to events can be challenging when you are autistic. It is definitely challenging for me. I have noise sensitivity and social anxiety. I’ve recently learned that I’m liable to crash if I’m overstimulated during a social event. Fun! I’m going to talk about a specific event here. It is…

Random Articles:

  • Why Saying “Everybody Is A Little Autistic” Is Harmful

    I’ll explain why this saying and its siblings are harmful to actually autistic people. I was talking with someone recently, asserting that I was actually autistic. His reply was that we’re all neurodiverse. In other words, my case is not special at all, and I should just shut up. The claim that we’re all neurodiverse…

  • My Conditions Are Not Moral Failings

    It is really hard to abandon the idea that conditions are moral failings when society at large bleats that they are. Tie your hat down. This is going to be a longish article. I’m going to highlight some ways in which doctors and the general population hold onto an obsolete model of our somatic and…

  • Stimming Is Life 001

    A playlist for those who like to stim to music. I’m a late-diagnosed autistic, and yes I did self-diagnose. For the longest time I was able to mask, but my cancer lessened my ability. Yet, if I look back at my life, I was stimming years before my cancer. One form of stimming for me…

Latest Articles:

  • Eye Compresses Are Not All The Same

    Color me surprised, but there are differences between the various eye compresses that are on the market. You need to be logged in to view the rest of the content. Please Log In. Not a Member? Join Us

  • A Vale Of Tears, In Musical Form

    This is how I tick, musically speaking. It is no mystery that I like to stim to music. My entire life is adorned with music. I bring music everywhere I can. Yes, even in the MRI machines that look at my brain to make sure my cancer hasn’t come back. If they allow me to…

  • If You Can’t Muster Empathy, Shut Up!

    I’ve recently gotten a very shitty response to a vent of mine. I decided to vent into the fediverse with this message: This was just a vent. I’m mildly annoyed, but not angry. I did not berate them for their silence. I’m just venting in the fediverse. This is it. I’ve been on the dating…

  • The USA Is Great At Stunt Medicine, Crap At Caring: Living Proof

    I’m the living proof that the USA is great at stunt medicine, but absolute and utter crap at caring. This article was rescued from another publication. It was minimally edited for publication here. I’m the embodiment of someone who on the one hand received both life-saving care from the medical industry, and on the other…

  • Does Laziness Exist?

    I used to say “yes,” but I’m now willing to say that, in a lot of cases, it does not. I’m not yet ready to declare that laziness does not exist. However, a case can be made for the position that the word is being used in cases where there is in fact no laziness.…

  • Famotidine Was Making Me Depressed And Caused Fatigue

    More reflections on my experience with famotidine. Preamble: I wrote this piece in August 2022, about six days after my previous piece on famotidine. I decided to do minimal edits before publishing it here. In particular, I did not adjust the chronology. I did not know I was autistic at the time. However, I’m now…

Latest Videos From My YouTube Channel:

  • A Special Restaurant

    A very special restaurant with very special menu items. https://spectra.video/w/eCUPUiKkzkd7cx8opGdhBu

  • Linda Yaccarino Speaks To Customers

    Linda Yaccarino speaks to a group of customers, but it does not go well. https://spectra.video/w/gowWtuR81QsfT5uCknjrzQ

  • It’s The End Of The News As We Know It

    Google News wants more news. It has an unexpected effect. https://spectra.video/w/apcHUV3F5qEqjfWuuquqYq

Latest Music:

  • Stimming Is Life’s Greatest Hits 001

    The greatest hits so far in the Stimming Is Life series. Actually, Obsession is in a list that I haven’t released yet. Oops! (ETA: So is Houdini.) The YouTube playlist: The Spotify playlist: If you want a t-shirt, a hoodie, a sweatshirt with the text “Stimming Is Life”, head to my Bonfire store.

  • A Vale Of Tears, In Musical Form

    This is how I tick, musically speaking. It is no mystery that I like to stim to music. My entire life is adorned with music. I bring music everywhere I can. Yes, even in the MRI machines that look at my brain to make sure my cancer hasn’t come back. If they allow me to…

  • Stimming Is Life 006

    More music for those who like to stim to music! The YouTube playlist: The Spotify playlist: You, too, can get a hoodie, sweater, or shirt that says “Stimming Is Life” over on my Bonfire store.