Your Autistic Life: The Ruminations of an Autistic Enby
This is my blog. I masked my autism for the first 50 years of my life. I discovered in March 2023 that I am, in fact, autistic. Prior to this time, my life was mostly okay, but did not make much sense overall. Since my self-diagnosis, my life makes much more sense.
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UnitedHealth’s Stupidity Is Suffocating
What kind of idiots run this company?????????? UnitedHealth was hit in a data breach. They did exactly what you should not do. For fuck’s sake! You do not need to be a genius to fucking know what I’m going to fucking tell you here. If you guessed that I am mad, well, bingo! You win…
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The Examined Life
The discovery of my neurodivergence has been a blessing in disguise, for, together with other crises, it forced me to examine my life. I know for a fact that some people won’t accept that neurodivergence is a blessing at all. These folks sometimes wish that they would be able to do away with their own…
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Why Do Autistic People “Make A Scene?”
Because you don’t bloody listen. Going to events can be challenging when you are autistic. It is definitely challenging for me. I have noise sensitivity and social anxiety. I’ve recently learned that I’m liable to crash if I’m overstimulated during a social event. Fun! I’m going to talk about a specific event here. It is…
Random Articles:
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Regular Individual’s Foot
Finn sees a doctor for his foot. https://youtu.be/KUSL1GR5Kh4
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Dating Advice For Autistic People: Dating Apps
The various dating apps out there are not all equal. I tell you what to look for. Keep in mind that I’m a 51-year-old cis man. Who is pansexual, polyamorous, and into BDSM. If you are a 22-year-old straight cis girl, your experience will most likely differ from mine. Actually, I’m sure it will. I…
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How My Sleep Specialists Screwed Me
Good news: I solved my insomnia problem. Bad news: my sleep specialists screwed me. This article was originally published elsewhere in November 2022. I’m republishing it here with minimal editing. I’ll note that my insomnia problem is not fully fixed. It is definitely better. I now sleep five to height hours per night instead of…
Latest Articles:
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Why I Usually Don’t Get All Pissy When A Relationship Fails
I don’t like drama. Finding a picture for this article was hard. That’s because a lot of the pictures I found imply feelings that I don’t have. (I’m not crushed, or angry, etc.) Or they imply the end of a long and intense relationship. It wasn’t the case here. My latest date told me minutes…
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A Senseless Breakup As a Zen Koan
She put me in an impossible situation, and gave me the gift of a koan. I’m still reeling from the worst breakup of my life. Well, the worst breakup so far. There’s no telling if something even worse will come some day. It’s been almost two years, but last night a song came up and…
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Gift Giving: A Minefield
I’m both a bad giver and a bad receiver of gifts, according to society, at any rate. Gift giving is a minefield for most autistic folks. It definitely is one for me. Since Valentine’s Day is upon us, here’s a reflection on why most options are terrible. In no specific order, A great part of…
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Is Meditation More Pleasurable Than Sex?
What being neurodivergent and queer has taught me about this question. There is frank talk about sex in what follows here, including masochism. In my view, it is light talk, but reader beware. From time to time I see claims that meditation is indeed more pleasurable than sex. Wow! Let’s reach for the meditation cushion…
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Getting Rid of Old Shit
I’m lightening the load. Don’t think for one second that getting rid of old shit is easy for me. I do find all kinds of reasons to keep stuff around, but life events sometimes insist on your making the decision to get rid of shit. My divorce was such an event. I had to part…
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On Zen Practice
The revolutionary art of unlearning. I don’t think that what follows is especially original. It was probably communicated to me at the beginning of my practice, but I was too bewildered and stupid to understand it. It is only now, after years of practice, that I finally understand what was communicated. When I talk about…
Latest Videos From My YouTube Channel:
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Schrödinger’s [Bleep]
Today we learn about Schrödinger’s [bleep]. That’s when a [bleep] fell on his head and he came up with the [bleep]ity wave. https://youtu.be/4FtCVAMcQ-0
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Ear Muffins
Finn is showcasing new apparel. https://youtube.com/shorts/RHneJYxJPJM?feature=share
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The Parabola Of The Mustard Seed
Finn wants to tell a parabola to Alice. https://youtube.com/shorts/2zZhS1CLQAE?feature=share
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Stimming Is Life 005
More music for those who like to stim to music! The YouTube playlist: Here is the Spotify playlist: You, too, can get a hoodie, sweater, or shirt that says “Stimming Is Life” over at my Bonfire store.
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Stimming Is Life 004
A playlist of music that I stim to. This playlist contains some oldies. I suppose the term oldie depends on what age you are, but I expect that for most kids, some of the music is going to fall squarely in the oldies category. If I do have some trivia about a song that I…
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Stimming Is Life 003
More music to stim to. As usual, take what you like, ignore the rest. Note that Spotify does not seem to have The Living Tombstone remix of Epoch by Savlonic. Also, Vital Signs by Tame Impala is not on Spotify. Here is the YouTube playlist: Here is the Spotify one: As usual, comments are welcome.…