Your Autistic Life: The Ruminations of an Autistic Enby

This is my blog. I masked my autism for the first 50 years of my life. I discovered in March 2023 that I am, in fact, autistic. Prior to this time, my life was mostly okay, but did not make much sense overall. Since my self-diagnosis, my life makes much more sense.

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Editorials:

  • UnitedHealth’s Stupidity Is Suffocating

    What kind of idiots run this company?????????? UnitedHealth was hit in a data breach. They did exactly what you should not do. For fuck’s sake! You do not need to be a genius to fucking know what I’m going to fucking tell you here. If you guessed that I am mad, well, bingo! You win…

  • The Examined Life

    The discovery of my neurodivergence has been a blessing in disguise, for, together with other crises, it forced me to examine my life. I know for a fact that some people won’t accept that neurodivergence is a blessing at all. These folks sometimes wish that they would be able to do away with their own…

  • Why Do Autistic People “Make A Scene?”

    Because you don’t bloody listen. Going to events can be challenging when you are autistic. It is definitely challenging for me. I have noise sensitivity and social anxiety. I’ve recently learned that I’m liable to crash if I’m overstimulated during a social event. Fun! I’m going to talk about a specific event here. It is…

Random Articles:

  • Stimming

    I’ve stimmed all my life, but its manifestation has changed over time. As I reflect on earlier episodes in my life, I realize that a lot of the symptoms associated with autism were present in me, but masked. I’ve stimmed way before my cancer weakened my ability to mask, but I did not know what…

  • Was Autism A Factor In My Divorce?

    No, and yes. It is a complicated question for which both answers are correct. I’ve always maintained that my autism wasn’t the cause of my divorce. This is true, insofar as neither of us knew that I was autistic. That’s something I realized after the divorce. However, I’m still engaging in The Great Reflection. As…

  • Say Yes To The Dressing

    Finn has an idea for a new game show. https://youtube.com/shorts/5tuKkazaZRI

Latest Articles:

  • Eye Compresses Are Not All The Same

    Color me surprised, but there are differences between the various eye compresses that are on the market. You need to be logged in to view the rest of the content. Please Log In. Not a Member? Join Us

  • A Vale Of Tears, In Musical Form

    This is how I tick, musically speaking. It is no mystery that I like to stim to music. My entire life is adorned with music. I bring music everywhere I can. Yes, even in the MRI machines that look at my brain to make sure my cancer hasn’t come back. If they allow me to…

  • If You Can’t Muster Empathy, Shut Up!

    I’ve recently gotten a very shitty response to a vent of mine. I decided to vent into the fediverse with this message: This was just a vent. I’m mildly annoyed, but not angry. I did not berate them for their silence. I’m just venting in the fediverse. This is it. I’ve been on the dating…

  • The USA Is Great At Stunt Medicine, Crap At Caring: Living Proof

    I’m the living proof that the USA is great at stunt medicine, but absolute and utter crap at caring. This article was rescued from another publication. It was minimally edited for publication here. I’m the embodiment of someone who on the one hand received both life-saving care from the medical industry, and on the other…

  • Does Laziness Exist?

    I used to say “yes,” but I’m now willing to say that, in a lot of cases, it does not. I’m not yet ready to declare that laziness does not exist. However, a case can be made for the position that the word is being used in cases where there is in fact no laziness.…

  • Famotidine Was Making Me Depressed And Caused Fatigue

    More reflections on my experience with famotidine. Preamble: I wrote this piece in August 2022, about six days after my previous piece on famotidine. I decided to do minimal edits before publishing it here. In particular, I did not adjust the chronology. I did not know I was autistic at the time. However, I’m now…

Latest Videos From My YouTube Channel:

  • ER Doctors

    ER doctors like to say that all your problems are caused by stress or anxiety

  • Space Opera – Episode 4: Space Stuff

    What’s the difference between space things and plain things? Listen to find out! https://spectra.video/w/rnUwTUxV12xxhu2ywSucWe

  • With All Due Respect

    When someone starts a sentence with “with all due respect,” you know what’s coming. https://spectra.video/w/e7coxesa9YaL1hX1fvHRzs

Latest Music:

  • Stimming Is Life 002

    A playlist for those who like to stim to music. One thing I found that 120 beats per minute (BPM) may be close to my limit when I walk. I may have songs that go above this limit, but if they are too fast, then I just hand-dance and forget about walk-dancing. If you want…

  • Stimming Is Life 001

    A playlist for those who like to stim to music. I’m a late-diagnosed autistic, and yes I did self-diagnose. For the longest time I was able to mask, but my cancer lessened my ability. Yet, if I look back at my life, I was stimming years before my cancer. One form of stimming for me…