Your Autistic Life: The Ruminations of an Autistic Enby
This is my blog. I masked my autism for the first 50 years of my life. I discovered in March 2023 that I am, in fact, autistic. Prior to this time, my life was mostly okay, but did not make much sense overall. Since my self-diagnosis, my life makes much more sense.
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UnitedHealth’s Stupidity Is Suffocating
What kind of idiots run this company?????????? UnitedHealth was hit in a data breach. They did exactly what you should not do. For fuck’s sake! You do not need to be a genius to fucking know what I’m going to fucking tell you here. If you guessed that I am mad, well, bingo! You win…
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The Examined Life
The discovery of my neurodivergence has been a blessing in disguise, for, together with other crises, it forced me to examine my life. I know for a fact that some people won’t accept that neurodivergence is a blessing at all. These folks sometimes wish that they would be able to do away with their own…
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Why Do Autistic People “Make A Scene?”
Because you don’t bloody listen. Going to events can be challenging when you are autistic. It is definitely challenging for me. I have noise sensitivity and social anxiety. I’ve recently learned that I’m liable to crash if I’m overstimulated during a social event. Fun! I’m going to talk about a specific event here. It is…
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My Suffering Is For All Sentient Beings
Although my life used to be lived for myself, it is now lived for others. When I began to practice Zen, my goal was to reach enlightenment as fast as possible. I was sitting, mostly for my own benefit. I’ve sat in meditation on and off for over 27 years. Furthermore, I’ve been to seven-day…
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At 50 I’m Realizing I’m Not Made To Live Alone
Most of the time, these days, I live alone. My mental health is suffering from it. I initially wrote this article in March 2023. I’m republishing it here with minimal edits. I’ll provide an update at the end. This is a realization that came to me only very recently… during the past few weeks, actually. I…
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Stimming Is Life 002
A playlist for those who like to stim to music. One thing I found that 120 beats per minute (BPM) may be close to my limit when I walk. I may have songs that go above this limit, but if they are too fast, then I just hand-dance and forget about walk-dancing. If you want…
Latest Articles:
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Anger, This Unwanted And Useless Guest
I don’t know if anger is ever useful, but it definitely is useless right now. I’m in a bind. I’ve had a wonderful one-night stand with a girl almost a month ago. We had a great time together. However, I’ve not heard from her since our encounter. This saddens me immensely. Now, one of the…
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The State of The Dating Apps
Feeld is buggy. KinkD is not very active. Oh, and I’m back on OkCupid. Feeld is buggy as sin. The November 2023 update has been a shitshow and continues to be a shitshow. I recently let my Feeld subscription lapse. No biggie. However, I’ve received during the past few weeks about three likes that never…
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Am I The Asshole?
This is a question that I ask myself often, probably because of the trauma I suffered. I believe this concern about whether I am an asshole comes from innumerable times when I was unjustly labeled an asshole. Over time, I internalized the accusers’ voices, and now I ask myself whether I am, in fact, an…
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Aphorisms of Love: An Early Disappointment Is Better Than A Late One
It is better to discover incompatibilities early, rather than late. Ideally, we wouldn’t discover any incompatibilities. However, reality being the way it is, it is better to discover these early, rather than late. An early unmatch is easier to handle, than a late one. I’ve been rejected, this very morning. Truth be told, I wasn’t…
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The Problem With Your Answers To My Questions
When I complain about a product, your answer to just stop using it stinks, very badly. Once in a while, I run into problems with this or that product. Sometimes, when I cannot find a solution, I post my issue to the fediverse, hoping someone will have the answer. A lot of people don’t respond.…
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When Your Sex Bites You In Your Autistic Ass
I’m a cis male, but my autistic traits correlate with those of cis female individuals. The study of autism is plagued with sexism, even to this day. There is definitely more awareness of the problem nowadays, but the prevalent view of how autism presents in people is largely based on antiquated stereotypes. If you are…
Latest Videos From My YouTube Channel:
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Cologuard Spoof
I’ve used Cologuard, and yes, you poop in a box. (If you are on the fediverse, you’re going to have to follow the link to the article to see the video.)
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Uloric Spoof
I suffer from gout and can tell you that it does not feel like carrying a giant jar of radioactive piss.
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Breakfast Club Spoof
Hello carrot! (If you are on the fediverse, you’re going to have to follow the link to the article to see the video.)
Latest Music:
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Stimming Is Life’s Greatest Hits 002
The greatest hits so far in the Stimming Is Life series.
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Stimming Is Life 013
Even more music to stim to! I’ve given an autistic reading of The Rifle’s Spiral by The Shins here.
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An Autistic Reading Of The Rifle’s Spiral
My take on a few lines of The Rifle’s Spiral by The Shins. This music video came into my orbit before I knew that I was autistic. However, there are a few lines in there that have always captured my imagination. I’ve had other neurodivergent people listen to this piece, and they also latched onto…