Your Autistic Life: The Ruminations of an Autistic Enby
This is my blog. I masked my autism for the first 50 years of my life. I discovered in March 2023 that I am, in fact, autistic. Prior to this time, my life was mostly okay, but did not make much sense overall. Since my self-diagnosis, my life makes much more sense.
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UnitedHealth’s Stupidity Is Suffocating

What kind of idiots run this company?????????? UnitedHealth was hit in a data breach. They did exactly what you should not do. For fuck’s sake! You do not need to be a genius to fucking know what I’m going to fucking tell you here. If you guessed that I am mad, well, bingo! You win…
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The Examined Life

The discovery of my neurodivergence has been a blessing in disguise, for, together with other crises, it forced me to examine my life. I know for a fact that some people won’t accept that neurodivergence is a blessing at all. These folks sometimes wish that they would be able to do away with their own…
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The Autistic And Allistic Minds As Gardens

An allegory that might explain why some people discover their autism late in life. Imagine the mind, as a garden. In this garden there are all kinds of plants. In this garden, some gardeners keep the paths open. They prune this tree, and that bush, to make sure things don’t get out of hand. In…
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The Measure Of An Enby

Am I nonbinary? The signs point to the fact that I am. When you’ve met one enby, you’ve met one enby. I realized that this motto was true even before meeting one enby as an enby on a dating app. I suspect I have met some enbies a long time ago, but I did not…
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When Your Sex Bites You In Your Autistic Ass
I’m a cis male, but my autistic traits correlate with those of cis female individuals. The study of autism is plagued with sexism, even to this day. There is definitely more awareness of the problem nowadays, but the prevalent view of how autism presents in people is largely based on antiquated stereotypes. If you are…
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Does Laziness Exist?
I used to say “yes,” but I’m now willing to say that, in a lot of cases, it does not. I’m not yet ready to declare that laziness does not exist. However, a case can be made for the position that the word is being used in cases where there is in fact no laziness.…
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Famotidine Was Making Me Depressed And Caused Fatigue
More reflections on my experience with famotidine. Preamble: I wrote this piece in August 2022, about six days after my previous piece on famotidine. I decided to do minimal edits before publishing it here. In particular, I did not adjust the chronology. I did not know I was autistic at the time. However, I’m now…
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Neurodivergence And Spirituality
Is it possible that neurodivergent people experience spirituality differently than neurotypical folks? The answer is obvious. Yes, we experience spirituality differently than neurotypical folks. Why should spirituality be any different from the other realms of existence? I’ll remind you that I used to think that we perceive the world in more or less the same…
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Feeld’s Moderation Wasn’t Great, But It Is Now Nonexistent
Feeld’s moderation was never great, but it is now nonexistent. I’ll explain how I came to this conclusion in this article. It really hurts me to say this, because I think that Feeld is the best platform for people who are part of the gender and sexual minorities (GSM). I am part of several of…
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On Silver Linings And Cancer
It may take some time before you see the silver linings. Is cancer able to provide someone with silver linings? Yes, it is able to do just that. However, it is also possible that no silver linings will emerge. Moreover, these silver linings may not become evident for some time after treatment. It took about…
Latest Videos From My YouTube Channel:
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The Fuck You Fountain
CONTAINS CRUDE LANGUAGE! The Fuck You Fountain will not give you water, but it will insult you, in multiple languages. https://spectra.video/w/wkXJMeUrtkoSHc1PpkHcth
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Of Caregiver Doms And Masochistic Flies
A masochistic fly asks about caregiver Doms. https://spectra.video/w/4szpH1Es7udqCV1EaW3cPj
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Disemvoweled
Someone gets disemvoweled. https://spectra.video/w/53Jx14wXbgN3pcgK5stNNA
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Stimming Is Life 009
More music to stim to. The music video for I Appear Missing is a big gory. Also, I picked the audio of Miracle for the YouTube playlist. There is an official music video, but it is not safe for work. If you want to see it, you’ll have to work for it.
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Stimming Is Life 008
More music to stim to. Lest you think that I’m making these playlists just for you. No, I’m making them for myself. I’ve been stimming to the following playlist for a few weeks now on my daily walks, and on the subway. Oh, Tranz by Gorillaz is a bit fast, but it is sooo gooooood!…
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Stimming Is Life 007
A playlist of music I stim to. The playlist on YouTube: The playlist on Spotify: Get your very own Stimming is Life sweatshirt in my Bonfire store:
